Buto Indignant

2008 is, generally, a good year for me. i can’t say it’s the best, but i think it’s the the most interesting year of my life, so far.

so, to those who participated in giving my 2008 a very delightful character this is for you all . . . (wooohooo!)

* those who helped me in getting through the rough situations of this year . . . thank you so very much! kudos to you! i will always and forever be indebted to you and i am also thankful for having you in my life . . . you can count on me on your share of the rough times, i’m just a text or a shout away (for my workmates) if you need my insignificant assistance. hehe! i love you with all my heart! (((hugs)))

* those i have indulged myself in making your lives miserable . . . sorry. it’s just that my evil side couldn’t resist in taking down the lower parts of the food web when it feels like it. i’m not competitive, don’t get me wrong . . . i just don’t have the patience in dealing with people whose intellectually challenged selves are beyond “extreme makeover”. but, i always see to it that when i do that . . . it’s just me joining the “bandwagon” or i’m just getting even. bweheheheh! (disclaimer alert!) but for all its worth . . . i am deeply and bleedingly sorry.

* those who pushed me around WITH my consent . . . well, what can i do i’m too stupid a times to react and too lazy to say “no, asshole are you out of your friggin mind and minute brain!”. sorry too ‘coz most of the time it’s my way of getting back at you with less guilt, and of course you don’t know that until you’ve read this. you know, the thing with people like me who looks fragile and harmless (hanep!) we have billions of blades in our wings. bwahahahha! (i’m just trying to set an impression that i can be feared,too, you know. bigay nyo na ‘yon!hehehhehe!) sorry nga pala!

AND, finally . . .

* those who pushed me around WITHOUT my consent . . . a heartfelt FUCK YOU! and may your lives be more miserable and lamer by the minute come 2009.

there you go . . . now i can start 2009 right. wooooooohooooooooooo!!!!!

(kampay, amigas and amigos . . . we all deserve another year of merriment!)

i am uber bored, i could levitate.

jusko.

the whole of the creatives are in broadway and i am left at tape. 5 hours of waiting. mahgolay! my brain is about to be taken over by scum. i am like brain dead by the time they get back.

and cyberworld is not as friendly, too.

jusko, again.

you are faced with a very shitty situation. you give a fucked up reaction. and all of a sudden you already know what to change about you.

i haven’t grown, after all.

you get old. you feel uncool. you become less and less patient. you savor the time that you have for sleeping. and the time you have to take a long serious bath. this is me now. i have not enough time to waste and if ever i have, i don’t feel like wasting it. it sounds uncool, boring and crappy, but believe me, i’m loving it. i feel tired, every now and then, but this is better than feeling tired being nothing and a waste of space in the universe.

i’m on a high.

not being able to say anything when you feel like it is worse than taking tons of valium. shit happens. and i feel like crap all over again. i’ve been there, done that… but, i don’t think i’ll ever get used to it. never… ‘coz i don’t understand why the hell things like "this" happen.

oh well.

ilang bagyo pa ang kailangang dumaan.
ilang dasal pa ang kailangang pakawalan.
isa lang naman ang hinihiling ko sayo . . .

bilisan mo!

dahil . . .

natatae na ako!

this is what i think of you . . . nothing,but a dwelling joke amidst the farts that the world had created for bored people like me! so, yeah, i find you uber funny and, yeah, you’re not aware of that, of course . . . habit makes you immune. so there you go . . . go joke some more! i need to laugh once in a while.

haha! thank you!

2008 will be a great year for me. This is the year for me. I will be better, braver and bolder. And this year, I will really, wholeheartedly pursue my dreams no matter how hard and rough the road may be. I will get “there” THIS year. I will become who I am born to be THIS year.

No more settling for anything less.
No more holding back.
No more senseless tears.
No more waiting.
No more second thoughts.
No more wishing.

This year I will make IT happen for me.
2008 will be the best!

I am keeping the faith.

it all started when i finally got bored.
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i just got bored… that’s all.

my head is in a crazy, crazy state right now — im mastering photoshop and final cut pro all in one friggin go. yeah, im crazy to be doing this but i’ll be crazier if i wont. all for the sake of my sanity . . . no connection whatsoever, but yes, all for the sake of my sanity.

im leaving only one door open in my life right now . . . and that will be the EXIT door with the hope that an ENTRANCE door will open for me soon.

im a firm believer of the powers of prayer and strong faith.